The first 20 years of the filmmakers life he grew up in two places in Jerusalem and in an ashram in India a thing he had to keep a secret in the ashram it wae expected of him to devote his entire being to his guru Thus in his words he could finally define the purpose of his life understand the truth of the meaning of life and be enlightened 20 years later quite a few in psychological therapy the director sets out on a quest to find out what was hidden in his life in India why his life in the Ashram still affects him even when he has not visited in years And whether he grew up in a cult